Well the verdict is in,, I have Sarcoma Cancer in my lower right leg and Tibia- I have run the whole gambit of options,,, Chemo,,, Radiation,,,, Leg Saving Surgery,,, Amputation ?? It will probably be Amputation as a way forward. That is definitely a life changing event.

So,,, is it a detriment to my life or an opportunity in my life ??? Well it has to be an opportunity-

Jump ahead (2-1/2 Months)

It has been two and one half month since I had my right lower leg amputated. Has it been tough,,,, that is a definite yes. Has it forced a change to my life,,,, that is a definite yes as well … Has the change been for the better or for the worst ,,,,, that answer depends on what I allow my point of view to be ???

If your point of view is worldly,, in that this life is all you have,,, and when it is over,,, it is over,,, then it is a bad thing. It will definitely change how I live and interact in this life!! Things are certainly going to be more difficult and take a lot more attention and time.

Jump ahead (02-Aug-2023)

Now it has been almost 5 years since my amputation and since I started learning to use this new magic prosthetic lower right leg. Has there been ups and downs ??? Certainly yes.  One night, in the middle of this night, half asleep I got up and headed to bathroom on my knee scooter,,, not paying complete attention when I crossed the threshold into the bathroom,,, I fell down and took the bathroom sink with me, breaking my right middle finger in the fall as the sink crushed it !!! I still have to deal with some phamtom pain, once in a while,,,, like by right foot is cramping up or my right foot is frozen or my right calf has a charley horse,,,, problem is,,, I don’t have a right foot or anything below the knee !!!!

Yes there have been some persistant issues but there is a far greater upside then I could have ever imagined !!

It has forced me back to God and Jesus- I have spent a lot of time in prayer about all that was going on and he has blessed my life with a greater peace and contentment than I would have ever achieved without this down time !!!!

I don’t “want” like I used to “want” living in and for the world and I don’t need either as he provides all that I really need each day !!! 

I have reached a point that I can pray for things and people that aren’t tied to any direct benefit for myself. 

He has shown me the arrogance, pride, greed, self-satifaction, selfishness and prejudice that was ruling my life and destroying me from the inside out !!!

I am telling you that Cancer and the loss of a leg,,, was a very very small price to pay to come back home to Jesus and spend eternity in heaven with him and the father !!! A very small price in return for the love and peace he has returned to me !!!

My Grandma used to say,,,, “In the darkest cloud,,, there is always a silver lining” !!! That I can testify, in my life, is a given fact !!! You just have to believe and look for it !!!

If you are in a dark cloud of your life,,,, turn back to Jesus or seek him out ,,,, and he will show you the Golden lining !!!!

Guaranteed !!!!

God Bless All You Do !!!