I spent quite a bit of time in Alaska- Living, Playing, Working, Hiking, Boating, Fishing and Hunting- Alaska is a beautiful place, full of breath-taking scenery- Most everywhere you go there you can stop and take a deep breath and be filled with clean, fresh Mountain Air- If you ever get a chance you should go experience it- The summers are fantastic with almost continuous daylight,,, you seem to never run out of energy-

It is GREAT,,, but there can be one downside when you are out and about,,, No-See-Ums !!!! These are itty bitty biting flies (smaller then mosquito’s)- When they bite they leave a welt with a major itch !!!! We call them No-See-Ums,,, because ,,, unless you get into a swarm of them,,, you can hardly see them,, until they strike !!!! We would wear hat nets like bee keepers but with real small mesh because they will come right through most screen mesh- You cover yourself with insect repellent and try to keep the bare skin to a minimum out in the bush- Anyhow they will always be around to bug you and usually will always find an unprotected spot to attack !!! But,,, there is one thing they can’t handle,,,, a gentle breeze- They can be swarming around you and driving you crazy,,, but as soon as you get a gentle breeze they are driven to ground immediately- Oh how great those gentle breezes are !!!!

It seems to me that we also have another type of No-See-Um in the spiritual realm- I would label them the Demon-No-See-Ums !!! The other night I was a bit in the dumps and was having all kinds of thoughts about,, self-pity,, whoa is me,, pride,, arrogance,, why did I deserve my situation,, prejudice,, greed,, selfishness and give me a break God !!! Well as I was setting there thinking and heating myself up about everything,,, the No-See-Ums came to mind- All these self-serving thoughts I was fighting were just like a swarm of Demon-No-See-Ums attacking from all fronts- For a bit they were winning,,, but then I thought of the gentle breeze that sends Alaska No-See-Ums to ground- I stopped, focused and prayed to God for a bit of heavenly breath/breeze,,, you know what,,, almost instantly the Demon-No-See-Ums must have went to ground,,, because I felt relived and understood the selfishness of my thoughts- You know if you just stop and focus on Jesus and ask,, he will send you the breeze of his powerful breath to send all your Demon-No-See-Ums to ground-

It is a filling breath of fresh air !!!! He is always, always there for you if you just believe in him and accept what he is !!!!!

What is your Plan

So what is your plan- We all have plans for what we want to be,,, where we want to go,,, what we want to see,,, who we want to be with or like !!!! Glorious Plans !!!! Usually self-guided plans that we want to control and adjust ourselves- I was exactly the same,,, I had some Grand Plans !!!

Now let me tell you how my self-guided plan rolled out,,, from experience- As you may recall, if you have followed this site a bit,,, that I am a true believer in God and the Son Jesus – I accepted them early in my life- He has always been with me and protected/guided me in most things I self-directed– You see I was using the free gifts from God to my advantage,,, to glorify myself- He gave me health, size, strength and a good personality so I could get along- Every time I got myself into a problem from my self-direction I turned back to Jesus and he bailed my out, so to speak- Well that went on for 69 years-

Now God is our father,,,, and like any good father he loves us unconditionally and wants the best for us- He guides us, and comforts us and protects us from harm- He is always there for us to turn back to,,,, but there is a point that a father has to discipline his children as he sees they are headed for heartache and disaster- A caring father does not discipline because he hates,,, he disciplines because he loves !!!!

Well my best laid, self-directed, self-glorifying plans came to a screeching halt at 69- That is when God, my father, decided that I had strayed far enough and needed to show me just how quickly my self-made plans could change, before I ruined my eternity !!!

Ahhhh ,,, June of 2018,,, I turned 69- I was riding the wave,, Good Health, still strong, a little money in the bank, wife with a good income producing business and I could retire to live the relaxed life- It seemed my self-directed plan was working out okay ???? Then a little lump developed on my lower right leg just below the knee- Didn’t think much about it as it didn’t hurt,,, unless I bumped it hard- I could work it out,, probably just a calcium deposit or something,,, no big deal- Well a couple months went by and it started to grow and hurt a little- Better go get his looked at ??? That was September 2018 !!!

Well here is the short story- In early October it was diagnosed as Sarcoma cancer,,, still no big deal we would just cut it off- Later in October more cancer was found in the lower part of my leg- So on the 2nd of November we amputated my lower right leg below the knee (Cut out the Cancer before it could spread)- Now I will tell you that this is a big game changer- When they mention Cancer and Amputation in the same sentence,,, it gets your attention !!!!

Lots of down/thinking time waiting for an amputation to heal so you can start with prostetics- Lots of time to think back on my life,,,, but I remained arrogent and full of pride that “I” could beat this- Yes I was praying a lot and asking for help and comfort and the Lord provided,,,, but way down deep I was still thinking “I” “I” could beat this- Well let me tell you,,, you can’t mock God !!!

I started working on a Magic Prostetic leg in January 2019 and was able to head back home in March of 2019- Well in April of 2019 my wife and I decided that it was best if we separate, now I am living alone and spending the most of the $$$ I had planned for the “good life” on Doctors, Operations and Prostetics !!!!

This all sounds pretty bad and depressing, and boy did this guy have a run of bad luck,,, well luck had nothing to do with this- I realized from the very first day that this was God showing me that he still loves me,,, even after a lifetime of using all that he had given me to glorify myself- I was backsliding to chase after the temporary good times of the world-

I thank the Lord everyday for loving me and showing me just how temporary and fleeting all my best laid plans in this world,,, for this world ,,,, really are !!!

The Lord Jesus has humbled me and shown me the error of my ways- I will be the last to say ,,, this is easy,,, NO,,, it is hard,,, real hard,,,, but through it all he has filled me with a peace and comfort inside that overcomes all external hardships and needs !!!

Find Jesus ,,, believe and accept him and he will never leave you alone !!! I truly believe and have now witnessed that in my own life !!! Thank You Lord Jesus,, All Glory belongs to you !!!!




Nail on the Head

I ran across this prayer today by Henri Nouwen – It pretty much hits the nail right on the head when I think back over my life – I was hung on the first two sentences !!! But also understood what the Lord was speaking to my heart,,,, I was full of Pride and Arrogance.

We can’t have it both ways,,,, either we spend/waste our life trying to be in control and the master of our destiny thus reaping what we sow — but — we never fulfill the deepest desires of our heart.

We need to surrender and open our hands to receive God’s gift of love -You will never regret taking his hand !!!

Dear God,

I so much want to be in control. 
I want to be the master of my own destiny. 
Still I know that you are saying: 
“Let me take you by the hand and lead you. 
Accept my love
and trust that where I will bring you, 
the deepest desires of your heart will be fulfilled.” 
Lord, open my hands to receive your gift of love.

Maybe Just One Ear Bud

I was walking yesterday afternoon,,, it was a really nice, warm sunny day- There was another guy walking toward me and waved as he went by- I said “Good Morning” and was about to ask how he was and I noted that he had in ear buds,,, So it would have done no good to talk further with him !!

Have you ever noticed how people with headphones or ear buds covering both ears are always looking all around- I know when I have them in I am constantly looking all around,,, Why,,, because I have lost touch with the world around me- I can’t hear anything coming up behind me,, can’t hear the wind in the trees,, can’t hear the birds or crickets singing,,, can’t hear the sounds coming from the ground I am walking on- I know that I am missing out on some of the pleasant and/or warning sounds around me- I certainly don’t talk much with people when I have them in,,, and people don’t want to talk with me when I have them in –

So what are we doing to ourselves and the people around us,,,,, We are isolating ourselves from interaction with our world- In my mind the more you isolate yourself,,, the more you withdraw from things,,, the more you withdraw, the more you start to deal with depression because you feel you can’t relate,,, then you start having all sorts of paranoid thoughts about the people and places around you ,,, because you won’t/can’t let yourself try and understand it- Man oh Man ,,, that does not sound good at all !!!!

Maybe Just One Ear Bud !!!!

Give Up or Give In

There are times in our lives that can become a defining moment.  These, often times, can require life changing decisions that we must make. I am in the early stages of what could become a life changing situation.

Without going into long details, that basically only apply’s to me, I will give you the short version. I have had a lump on my lower leg for a while and it is getting slowly bigger. After some initial tests, I have heard the “C” word,,, Cancer ,,, and the “A” word,,, Amputation in the same sentence. Nothing for sure yet but it is out there. I can tell you that those two words really tune you in and get your undivided attention. I will know more over the next week,, but that is not the subject of this post.

So what are you going to do in these situations,,,, Give Up ??? Of course not,,, you are going to fight tooth and nail to beat whatever it is. You will redirect your energies to overcome whatever the obstacles may be. You are not a quitter !!!

This is all good,,, but never quitting and never giving up is a tall order and usually carries a heavy burden on a person. You have to have some support to overcome,,, that is when you have to Give In. Giving In is not Giving Up,,, it is finding support to help you carry on carrying on. Support that is always there and always knows what you are going through. Support that gives you peace so you can continue forward. Peace that releaves the burden so you know you are on the right track.

My support is the Lord Jesus Christ. Believe in him and ask him to help and he will take your burdens on and give you peace that will transcend any thing you have ever known.

He is real and can be real in your life. Ask him in, accept him and believe. He will not let you down !!!!!! I believe that with all my heart and soul !!!!!


Creation or Creator

With all the Hype surrounding so many things in this world,,, I find myself wondering what am I doing- Think about it ,,, Environmentalism,,, Super Sports and Super Athletics,,,, Powerful People,,, Famous People,,, Fancy Homes and Exotic Places,,, Mind Blowing Machines all around us and presented to us from all sides.

These are all Creations of Worldly Distractions to take our minds and hearts away from the Creator of Creators,,,, God and the Lord Jesus Christ !!!

I believe it is time to focus less on the Creations and more on the Creator, Jesus Christ, if we want to have a happy ending when we are called from this existing Creation !!!!

“The Good” and “The Not So Good”

I have known and followed Jesus for a lot of years,,, most of my life. There have been “good times” and there have been “not so good” times. In looking back at all this,,, I can state without any doubt ,,,, that the “good times” were when I was close with Jesus and talking with him daily,,, the “not so good” were when I was running from him and handling my own affairs.

I am not saying that the “good times” were all fun and games, what I am saying is that I knew that Jesus was leading and had my back. Although things may have been tough,,, there was a calm in me that just reassured me that all would be okay. I have to say, that is a big deal.

In the “not so good” times when I was apart from Jesus and running in the world,, I never had that calm or reassurance that all would be okay. BIG DIFFERENCE !!!!

Now you ask,,, why if I am this convinced that this is the case in my life,,, why do I still have “not so good” times. Well that is an easy answer,,, I am a sinner and I still have a sin nature that I must fight against every day. If I go a few days or longer and disconnect from Jesus (run away from him)(stop talking with him) then the world comes flooding in with all the self-pity,, self-glorification and the “I deserve better” feeling.

We all have to realize that when we get out of Jesus’s yard and into the Devil’s yard (World) ,,, we are all out of our league without the help, guidance and protection of Jesus.

Accept Jesus and pray and talk with him every minute, moment, day,,, I guarantee he will give you a calm and peace that you will not believe but have always longed for, no matter what your present situation may be !!!!

Jesse Speaks for Jesus ???

“Trump says you must be able to speak the language of English, [be] qualified, and have a job skill,” Jackson said Monday. “Jesus would not qualify to come in Trump’s country—he would not qualify to get into Jesus’ kingdom.”

I saw this on the news a couple of weeks back and really could not believe what I heard,,, especially coming from a man, Jesse Jackson, who pretends to follow Jesus …

Lets look at this literally, just for fun,,, “Jesus would not qualify to come in Trump’s country,, Interesting. I believe Jesus can speak English as well as any other language he choses ??? No job skill??? Well let me think,, healing people of any illness or injury they had and raising people from the dead,,, seems to me to be a pretty good job skill ???

Now the hard facts in my mind. Any man that says something like “you would not qualify for heaven” ,,, knows nothing of Jesus or the requirement for heaven. We are all sinners and none of us deserve heaven. It is only through God’s saving grace and Jesus’s sacrifice on the cross that any of us can get in.

So at any time,,, anyone can believe and confess they are a sinner to Jesus and ask forgiveness of their sins,, and they are added to the Book of Life and will go to heaven.

So,,,,, I would have to suggest that any man that would make a statement like that, needs to check his own standing in the Book of Life according to the guidance of the Bible.

2 Peter 2:1
1 But there were also false prophets among the people, just as there will be false teachers among you. They will secretly bring in destructive heresies, even denying the Master who bought them, and will bring swift destruction on themselves.