Appeasement: the act or action of appeasing someone or something,, especially : a policy of appeasing an enemy or potential aggressor by making concessions (Webster’s Dictionary)

The other night I was put into a situation where I was questioned about my faith and where it came from- This was probably one of the few instances where I was talking to someone,,,, face to face,,, about this subject- It was a friend a little younger then me about cancer,,, he had and probably will again have to fight it- When he asked I felt convicted about it and proceeded with support from above !!!

You know that witnessing to someone face to face has always been difficult for me,,, even at 6 ft 5 inches and 270 lbs,, I have always been intimidated by it- It is one thing to witness in some blog like this where you don’t actually have to bare yourself into an uncomfortable/intimidating face to face position- You can just hit the send button into an infinite black hole of the internet, so to speak-

Later in the evening after this encounter,,, I had a very good feeling about doing it and hoped it had opened up the door into his heart about faith and Jesus !!!

Okay,,, here is the point to all this !! While laying in bed thinking and praying about it later,,, half asleep,, all of a sudden the thought of appeasement flashed into my mind,,,, Appeasement I thought ??? While having an understanding of what it meant,,, I have probably, to my recollection, never used the word in any conversation,,, just not in my base of words for conversing ???

Then, as I thought about it,,,, it came to me that “Appeasement” was exactly how I had been living my life relating to my faith and Jesus Christ / God,,, I was playing a game of appeasement with him to ride the fence between completely following him and chasing the world’s delusions !!!

Not that I have ever thought of Jesus as an enemy or potential aggressor,,, but I did realize/know/believe that he is my creator and much more powerful then the super’est of superheros !!! I did and have always feared him, respectfully, as the the Creator of all things and the final judge of everyone when this life is over,,, no exceptions there !!!

So how was I reacting so I could have it both ways,,, him and the world ??? What a delusion I was living- I was thinking I could give concessions to him so I could continue my false dreams of worldly living- How arrogant ( exaggerating or disposed to exaggerate one’s own worth or importance) and self-serving is that position toward someone like God !!!

So what is my way forward after this shot of light from Jesus- To try and pray for help to live by Pleasement (Living to please Jesus) rather then Appeasement ( Trying to make useless dilusional concessions, in my swallow mind to make me feel good about the life I was living)

I can’t have it both ways,,, I either have to accept him completely or I am actually rejecting him,,, and I can tell you what,,, at the end of this life, which we will all experience,,, I don’t want to be on the “reject him” side of things !!!

Find and except Jesus in this life and suffer through any of the temporary conscequenes or rejections of this world for the unimaginable happiness and peace of his heaven in the next !!! And there is a next, which will be unimaginably good or unimaginably bad,,, no doubt about that !!!

God Bless and Thanks for reading !!!!